Monday, February 28, 2011

puppy.

I miss Roxy so much, I could cry a river. 
"Animal lovers are a special breed of humans, generous of spirit, full of empathy, perhaps a little prone to sentimentality, and with hearts as big as a cloudless sky." - I want this quote on my wall.

Thinking of Roxy makes me think of Marley and Me, and that just makes me cry.
That movie is so much like the lives we had with Roxy, the only difference, we shared one year of life with her before it was her time. Such a great life, cut so short.
Roxy was so energetic and full of life. No one will ever know how she shredded the whole dishwasher box, but didn't harm the dishwasher.  That is one of many best memories we had with her. And when she would sleep with her baby. It was adorable.
Miss you roxy.
She would have been three years old this April, where does the time go?




 I love you Roxy Godiva, and my heart aches from missing you  <3

One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain.

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life. -Bob Marley

groovy.


This was my Monday Evening Event. 
My dad ranked them on a scale from 1-10, an 11.
I think I did pretty good! 
They were yellow cake mix, with food coloring thrown inside.
There was more than just red and green, of course, I'm not all for Christmas colors, but these ones looked the best. There was purple, and blue, and green, and pink, and red. 
AWESOME, I know.
And they sure were tasty. I mean, take a gander at that frosting.
K, you can stop drooling now.
I had a picture of the inside of the cupcake, but it turned out way blurry.
I was just too excited I couldn't keep the camera still! Kidding.
Ah, what the heck. I'll post it anyhow. 


It tasted just as good as they looked. I'm so proud.
Dad wants me to get into Culinary Arts, maybe I'll consider a side job. HA!

Thursday, February 24, 2011

I wanna be like grace kelly.



I want summer. Can't you tell?
I really just can't wait for summer. 
That's about it.

I need to get into shape.
Find a good diet, ZUMBA every other day, and start slimming.
I'm going to do this. I will.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

talk is cheap, give me your word.

Before you assume, learn the facts.
Before you judge, understand why.
Before you hurt someone, feel.
Before you hate, you have to love.
Before you leave, commit to it.


Life has so many different twists and turns, and some can be headed toward the dreaded dead end sign.
Makes my heart drop. Where do I turn, when there is no right and there is nothing left?
I've learned that everyone should all live without pretending, and listen without defending. It's all we can do in such a discriminated society. I just wish we could all be friends. I regret nothing, and everything happens for a reason. I thank God everyday for everything that has happened to me in my life. Even the bad things, because I wouldn't be where I am now, if it weren't for those little mistakes I've made. Or words I've said. It probably hasn't been my wisest choice, but here it is. Sorry.


it's your choice.
"Everyday I regret how things ended with her. 
There is honestly not a day that passes that I wish I had not said the things I said to her. 
And I know he is not smart enough to feel that way right now, 
but with time maybe he will grow up enough to see what he did wrong."



And I don't want this to be taken in anyway that it isn't presented. I do not miss anyone but my Uncle Nathan who's life was taken so shortly.
And I love nobody in high school more than Shawn. 
I'm just trying to balance on a fine wire.
PLEASE, hear me out. I don't care if you're seeing this or not.
I'd rather you not, actually.

I love you Shawn Christopher.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

d'males

 I love my school. Most of it, at least.
And tonight is going to be great!  

D'males are performing during halftime at my school.
And my Shawny is in it, I'm so excited to watch him dance. 
It's funny, cuz he's never really been big into dancing.
I guess we will see how great he is tonight! If I get video of it, I'll post it on here of course!
I'm really stoked. Guys dancing is so much better than girls dancing. HAHA! 
And my friend Jordan is borrowing my teeny tiny extra small booty shorts to wear. 
Oh goodness!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wNqfHJSgO4&feature=related 
here is the link to D'Males 2009. Horrible quiality, 
but just so you can get a taste of why I'm so excited.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8JezNGJ8kE&NR=1
and here is another link to I think 2008.

Monday, February 21, 2011

playing it cool.

"Maybe the truth is there's a little bit of loser in all of us you know, 
being happy isn't having everything in your life being perfect. 
Maybe its about stringing together all the little things, 
like wearing these pants, or getting to a new level of Dragon Slayer. 
Making those count more than the bad stuff. 
Maybe we just get through it. And that's all we can ask for." 


-Sisterhood of The Traveling Pants
 

blonde beach babe.

this would be my hobby if I lived near the ocean.
you're a hurricane I will never outrun.
I could wait around, for the dust to still.
but I don't believe that it ever will.

nope, it never will.

I just want to go to the ocean and be carefree.
I want to swim with the dolphins at SeaWorld.
I want to have a special bond between me and sealife.
Nothing in this world would make me happier.
NOTHING. Well...



Besides my Shawnikins. But still...
I want to live my dreams, and become CAREFREE.
I want to get away from these stereotypes.
Meet new people while walking on the beach.
Always have sand on my driveway.
The only car I want is a Schwinn.  Too much to ask?

I believe so.
Until then, I'll sulk in sorrow of what CAN be.
I can't wait until I'm eighteen, I'll do what I want.

Can anyone say ROADTRIPS?
My bank account will be hurting for a few years.
I just need adventure, so tooooo bad.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

passionate.




 




 Just a few items I want.
I would become so happy.
Don't get me wrong, I'm already very happy. But don't these clothes and styles make you smile?

       They sure do.


 I'm learning how to do hair like this. I know how to most of it, I'm just waiting patiently, pattering my feet against the hardwood floor demanding my long hair to come back sooner than later.  


sigh.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

to my newest fans.

 Recipe for drama:
1 cup of gossip.
1/4 cup of rumors.
9 pounds of jealousy.

Mix well and sprinkle with lies.
Simmer for as long as they lack their own self-esteem.

It makes me smile just to know that my happiness is eating you all alive.
And that you all haven't gotten over me yet, I know, I'm great.

All it is, is that being rude always comes from a condescending mind set.
In other words, rude people are insecure and need to feed their damaged ego.


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Sunday, February 13, 2011

most recent activities.


I went to sweethearts last night, I had so much fun with my sweetheart Shawn.
Let me say this ONCE more, I'm so lucky to have him. He looked so good. We are the cutest couple.


 
OH AND

I love strawberries, and I love pretzels, and I love chocolate.
Put them together and I'm one happy girl.
This is what my mommy and I did today after church.


I actually look these pictures *applause*
Ohhh stop it I'm blushing.



 

Thursday, February 10, 2011

how could they?

Do they realize they are really that rude?
Do they know that no one REALLY likes them?
They're just afraid. So they pretend too like everyone else.

I wonder if they were to meet themselves one day, would they be friends?
I would think no.

I'm so glad I got out when I did.

Life is CRAZY.
And I've had so many learning experiences.
Sweethearts is coming up on Saturday.
Geez, I feel like I've been to like, two dances in my life.
But I've gone to a few, and these pictures all tell their own story.


Andrew and I, Homecoming 2010 



Perry and I, Christmas Dance 2010
Troy and I, Sweethearts 2010
Alex and I, El Cheapo 2010

Troy and I, Prom 2010
Shawn and I, Last Chance 2010
Sean and I, Homecoming 2011.
We don't have pictures uploaded.
Shawn and I, Christmas Dance 2011
Shawn and I also went to El Cheapo in January. We haven't gotten pictures back.

Crazy to see how things change throughout the years.

I just wanna play some phase 10.

Amber Young Turner

"You are only as happy as you make up your mind to be." –Abraham Lincoln. This quote by Abraham Lincoln definitely motivates me to do my best each and every day. Motivation is something that definitely drives me, and helps me accomplish things with having a good attitude.  I am driven to do my best when I put forth my own work, because I want people to approve of what I am saying or presenting.  Being ashamed or embarrassed is not the way to live your life.  You should have dreams, and a sight of direction that you wish to obtain in your future.   Having goals for the future encourages me to live happily and always have something in my mind that drives me to do my best.  Having a loving family who cares for me also helps me carry out tasks with awareness that something could happen if you didn’t pay full attention to what you are bringing about.
Buckling up is so important, and because of the actions my cousin’s friends had while driving their vehicles, Amber also started getting into the bad habit of not fastening her seatbelt before driving.  This led to a dramatic change of her life.  In October 2001, my cousin, Amber, was commuting back from her job as a CNA at Payson Hospital.  It was late, and still nobody knows why she didn’t choose to buckle her seatbelt.  Her car hydroplaned while driving through treacherous weather, flew across the lane, and landed into oncoming traffic. She was ejected from her car, flew out of the driver’s side window, and suffered from brain damage.  She died almost one year ago, on February 28, 2010 by her injuries from not bucking up.  From now on, I take action and make sure that everyone is secure before I drive in my car, or when I’m riding with anybody else.  Because of Amber’s accident it has definitely drove me to be the best that I can, and make sure I carry out tasks that keep everyone around me safe and secure. 
Being a good influence is certainly a great way you can drive other people, and yourself.  By doing community service, being a good influence, or saying kind and uplifting words can plant interest into your community around you and could soon drive them to do the best they can be.  Giving my friends and family good thoughts with kind words I say, or by carrying out worthy tasks motivates them to do their best and think about their actions before actually execute them.  Making one dishonest or immoral mistake can change your life or someone else’s life forever, physically, emotionally, or mentally.
I am passionate about the safety of others, and will still resume telling people about the tragic accident of my cousin, and educating them about how important it is to buckle up and be safe wherever you’re driving, whether it’s one block, or miles away.

when life knocks you down to your knees, pray.


What events in your life have defined who you are?

            So much has happened in my seventeen years of life, and every little thing that has taken place has defined who I have become today.  Growing up in a family of four, including me, has been such an adventure.  I have one sister, and having to share everything with her has made it easier for me share with my friends and other family members.  My sister and I have definitely had our fights, but all of that bickering back and forth has made me realize the small things that I could be doing better, and it has helped me little by little along the way. 
During Elementary School, I had a very sweet fifth grade teacher named Jeni Johnson.  Without fail, she would assist me with anything I needed help with and would always do it with a big grin on her face.  I realized that the little things, like having a listening ear, or always putting other people’s feelings before your own can be great joy to other people just by having an understanding of feelings or just someone to talk to.  Jeni has helped me a lot through my communication skills, and confidence to help other people whenever they need assistance. 
I was elected Student Body President my last year in Junior High School.  It has defined me more throughout my life by teaching me such great leadership skills.  Having the opportunity to listen to people’s opinions and having a chance to change things for the better has made me realize that one person does have a say in what happens in this world.  And all you need is someone who is willing to back you up, and someone to listen and carry out the task, even if that someone is yourself. You need to have confidence and believe in yourself.
Throughout all of these good accomplishments that have defined who I am today, there have also been those shocking events that happen unexpectedly in life.  My twenty-five year old uncle passed away, leaving behind his loving nine month old daughter, Corrine.  I tried to be there for her at age fourteen because I could never imagine what it would be like losing my father, especially without actually acknowledging him yet.  I became especially grateful for the time that I have here on this earth, and it makes me count my blessings each and every day for having such a wonderful family and all of my great friends.  Realizing how short life can actually be, has defined the way that I act in my life.
Getting my first real job at my family business was a success, I felt all grown up at a whopping age of fifteen.  I finally realized that dealing with customers when you’re the one working with them face to face can be just like the stories you hear growing up about a hard day at work, and even how the actors act in movies, blowing everything out of proportion.  I was practically forced to grow up if I was going to be handling money and carrying out a big responsibility.  Seeing that I was growing up, I started to pay for all of the items that I so badly “needed”, and that didn’t get far until I ran out of money. Along came my second job, Domino’s Pizza.  The people I work with are so sweet and caring.  I’ve been told that being around them really seems to lift my spirits, and I have realized it too now, looking back it has really changed me into a better and more defined young woman.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

admitting.

I'll admit. 
I've changed. And I honestly think it's for the better.
I'm definitely not as nice as I used to be because I don't want to get walked on.
But hey, I'm still nice. I just have my guard up, I'm human, can you blame me?
I don't trust everyone, so I distance myself from certain people.
I need to open up to someone first. And I'm pretty good at cracking them.
People only end up leaving you in the end, not in the END END. But you know.
I am the only person I can depend on. And you are yours.

Everyone needs to keep a smile carved on their face.
For the sake of others, and yourself. A smile is so contagious.
And it is the best therapy ever.
"Thank you stranger, for your therapeutic smile." -Bright Eyes.


And you can be the most beautiful person in the WORLD, but if your attitude is awful...
No one will ever notice how beautiful you truly are.
I cherish those small compliments I get.
And I carry them onto my days. They keep me going.


"Everything is gonna be alright, I promise."