Wednesday, January 26, 2011


I can't stand shallow girls. I CAN'T.
Today in class, my teacher was telling us about an argument that started during her second period class yesterday. Students were saying they heard there was yelling and punches thrown.
She laughed, and said this "Why is it that girls always have to lie about everything?"
I immediately exclaimed WRONG in my head.
I felt like it was a good time for me to say something, so I explained how girls can just get defensive, even when they don't have to. Or they just want the attention, so they lie. Other than that, I have no idea why anyone would want to get in a fight. Verbally or physically. It's just dumb.
My remark led her to say "Why would anyone ever want to fight? Just keep your mouth shut, and ignore it. It really is that easy!"
A girl in my class got involved and started laughing saying "It's too much fun when you get involved."
Under my teachers breath, she muttered that it'll get easier to not get involved when you grow up and stop caring so much what others think.
I heard her statement, and a smile started to grow on my face.
I haven't cared what people have thought of me for YEARS.
And really, it's so easy to keep my mouth shut now.
Swallow whatever you want to say, if it doesn't have to be said.
Or like my mother says, "bite your tongue."
I'm glad to know, and realize, that I am growing up the right way.

This leads me to a Facebook status I saw last night.
There has been a 12 year old boy who has ran away in my hometown.
The boy whose Facebook status I saw, was saying that we should get together a group and try to find him. And how it's just so sad to think about someone running away, or being lost.
I read on through the comments, and saw a girl who stood out to me.
Her unthoughtful words, saying that we shouldn't be wasting our time trying to search for him, or make an effort. Telling the boy to "get a life".
I then got involved.
"you realize this status is about a little boy who may have been taken, and might not have shelter in this cold weather? he never asked for your opinion, just your help to find him."
She then ignored my posts, and kept putting down this boy with the status'.
I got upset, but decided I shouldn't say anything else.
But then I did... 
"joell, just leave it alone and be the bigger person. :) she just wants a reaction from you. I hope she realizes how affected her life would be without her house, or her family. sounds to me like you need to live on the street with nothing for a while, melissa. just to get a little taste of reality. this world doesn't and will not revolve around you. learn that at your young age now, before you get older and turn into something youre not."
I realize that it could have been taken in a rude sense, and I didn't mean it that way.
I just wanted to be stern. 

People don't even realize how rude they are.
It makes me sad.

When will you grow up? PLEASE.

I have so much more to say. But I won't go on. I might save that for when I have a "blog fart" next time I log on.

Blog Fart: (verb) you have empty space in your mind, and cannot think of a single solitary thing to post on your blog.

Monday, January 24, 2011

oh joy

the joys of life.
the simple pleasures.
everyone needs hope.
everyone deserves it.

we're all in the same game, just different levels.
dealing with the same hell, just different devils.

believe it or not, I'm trying to communicate.
and it feels good, well, so it seems.
and lately, it's come to my realization again,
that everyone comes with baggage from previous relationships.
but who will be willing to love you enough, to stand there and help you unpack?
one who is truly devoted and loves me with all he is.

and I'm so lucky I have someone like that.
soooo lucky, lucky lucky lucky.

simply, it's simple.
I love him.

I love music.
I love my family.
I love my friends.
I love myself.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

to grandmothers house I go

Been staying at my grandma and grandpas. It's been fun, different, but fun.
I miss my parents, that's one thing for sure. It really makes me appreciate what they do for me when they're gone!  (laundry, dishes, they hear you the first time you say something...etc)

How about an overview of my week while my parents have been gone?

WORK WORK WORK. I always work.

I took Shawn to El Cheapo! We went to Arby's for dinner, it was fun besides the fact the meat on my sandwhich was bloodshot red, and my hot chocolate was really cold chocolate. After, we went to the dance, then we drove through slushy ugly frozen roads to McKenna Gleaves house to watch Inception.
That movie blows my mind... I absolutely love it.

I watched Despicable Me, and it was pretty funny. Not as funny as everyone has worked it up to be though, but that's probably why. My expectations were too high, like always.
I need to stop having such high expectations, it ruins so much.
I need to let things go the way they need, and be impressed by life.

Today I went to my cousins farewell. It seems like it was just yesterday he got his call, and now it's really all being put into action. Like I always say, time doesn't stop for anybody. He is going to be the best missionary, he is such a sweet, sweet boy. He will serve the Lord better than anyone I know. GO BRENNEN! We love you!

I've been playing Just Dance 2 inbetween all these days. My grandma purchased it, and her Wii actually works, so I've been having a hay day. I love it, it's fun and it's a workout.
Speaking of workout, I haven't purchased a Zumba pass yet like I said I would.
And I picked my split ends today at Church... Oh no.
New Years List = FAIL.

I'll try harder. Take care!

Thursday, January 13, 2011

new astrological signs?

If internet buzz is any indication, you've probably already heard there was a new addition to the zodiac family today: Ophiuchus.

Since ancient babylonians determined star signs, the moon's gravitational pull has made the Earth move slightly on its axis. So, here is the new astrological signs.

Capricorn: Jan. 20-Feb. 16.
Aquarius: Feb. 16-March 11.
Pisces: March 11-April 18.
Aries: April 18-May 13.
Taurus: May 13-June 21.
Gemini: June 21-July 20.
Cancer: July 20-Aug. 10.
Leo: Aug. 10-Sept. 16.
Virgo: Sept. 16-Oct. 30.
Libra: Oct. 30-Nov. 23.
Scorpio: Nov. 23-29.
Ophiuchus: Nov. 29-Dec. 17.
Sagittarius: Dec. 17-Jan. 20.

My birthday is September 16th, and I've always been a Virgo.
And I'm gonna remain one since that is the beginning of the Virgo's.
Cool! Lucky me.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

lessons = learned.

So, I found out I was following my sister and her boyfriends blog today. 
I didn't even know they had a blog.
Curse you, computer.
Logs onto my blog automatically,
and my sister made me follow her new and "noobish" blog. 
(I hope you both see this.)


I've learned a lot in my seventeen years of life.

You can never fully trust anyone.
No matter how much you think you know someone.You really don't. 
You wanna know what's worse than finding out that someone lied to you? 
Hearing them lie to you still after you've already found out the truth.

Things have to get worse, before they can get better.
And I've learned, when this happens. 
You need to watch for the people who put you down,
                                        and those who helped you up.

There are some people I will always hate. 
No, not hate. Dislike. Well, let's put it this way. 
If you were on fire, 
and I had water...
I would probably drink the water.

There is that one person, that you will always do way to much for. 
You'll realize it, and the next thing to do is stop and think if you're doing enough for yourself first.
Your happiness needs to come before others. If it's not this way, you will crumble.
Someone needs to draw the line between determination from desperation. That someone is me.

If someone wants to be in your life, they will make an effort to do so.

Always love your family, unconditionally. 
Because time and tide don't wait for anybody.
And you don't know the next time you will see them.
Overuse the word I love you. Family only.
Because there isn't a time when you can overuse that word when it comes to your family.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

mind over matter.

"Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase." -Martin Luther King, Jr
"Never let the hand you hold, hold you down." -Sally Kempton

We all have those favorite quotes that you look to when times get rough, or you just need a little more inspiration or comfort. 
I'm so blessed to have the friends that I do that don't pressure me into things I don't want to do, or make me do anything we all know is wrong. 
I love living my own life, and not someone else's. 

I love the family that I have. I love being happy. 
I love a happy family.

Anybody else notice how happy Oscar is toward the bottom left corner of the picture? 

Having pets is the best ever. You can always depend on them, and no matter what, they will always love you!
I've had lots of pets during my lifetime I guess you could say.
My first pet, Oscar Meyer Jensen. (Bottom left corner of the picture) Dachshund, and 11 years old, VERY old. And I haven't loved anybody more than him :)
For my sisters 8th birthday, she got a cat. Named him Diamond Snowflake Jensen. (It wasn't until later, we figured out he was a boy. But that didn't matter.) Diamond got diabetes, and died in 2007. RIP Diamy!
Two years ago we got a puppy, her name was Roxy, Chocolate Lab, and she died of kidney failure at 1 years young. Saddest day of my life. RIP Rox!
Now we have Frank Furter Jensen, Dachshund, and he is a little turd but we love him! He is two now I believe.
And just a couple months ago my Dad saved a kitten off the streets, she was about (gbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbba <- Graycie actually just wrote that. She likes to sit on my lap.) 
Anyways, she was about to get killed and so my Dad brought her home. Graycie May Jensen. She is the prettiest cat you'll ever see. She definitely adds to our family.

Other than all the goldfish, lizards, and snakes we had. Those are my pets <3
And that is my family.
And  those are my favorite quotes.

Enjoy your day!

Thursday, January 6, 2011

just be happy.

I just don't understand.
how people smile all day long, but cry themselves to sleep.
how pictures never change, but the people in them do.
how your best friend can become your worst enemy, but the memories you hold on to.
how forever turns into a few short months, that you'd do almost anything to get back.
how you can let go of something, you once said you couldn't live without.
how people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a moment's too much to spare.
how a person’s smell stays with you, even when they're not there.
how no one will take the blame, but everyone wants the credit.
how people make promises, they know will never happen.
how people can erase you from their lives, just 'cause it's easier then working things out.
how the ones who hurt you the most, are the ones that are so close.
how the ones who truly understand you, never seem to know it; and the ones who always wanted to, never really will.
how the ones who are distant, never seem to leave; and the ones who get too close, make it hard to breathe.
how you make so many plans, you know will never happen; and what always seems to happen, isn't what you planned.
how you know so many people, but feel like no one's there.
how the ones who made you happy, now don't even care.
and we’re just left wondering.
why can't life be fair?

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

around 181 more days.

Blue skies are calming.
Green grass is refreshing.
Sunshine is beautiful.

I miss Summer. I want Summer.
I want to meet new people.
I miss the sweet new people I've already met.

The carefree days, and endless nights.
This summer will be good, I can feel it.
Just, come fast? Please Summer?

At least Baseball starts up soon, that's something to look forward to.
Baseball boys are HOT. Especially my boy.
Too bad Softball at SHS is ridiculous and based on politics or else I'd probably be playing. sigh.
I just want city league again. I just want to pitch again. I just want to play on first again.  

The semester is almost over, ohmygoodness. I am so happy, yet I'm sad.
Reasons for the happiness?
  • I get a new English teacher who will finally grade things appropriately, and not lose all my work!
  • I get to Intern at my mommy's school! I'm stoked!
  • We only have one semester left!
Reasons for the saddness?
  • I'm not going to be in the same Anatomy class that I was in with all my good friends.
  • I have to commute to MMHS for my Intern class every other Wednesday.
It's good I have more happy reasons rather than sad ones. I hope it stays that way, I guess we will see.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011


I get to intern at Art City Elementary, for Special Education Preschool with my Mom. I am more than excited, words can't even describe. I love those little kids, it should be a lot of fun to be able to help them out and get to know them better. Not to mention, I may even practice my Spanish since there are three triplet Latino's in that class. Yay, win win situations are the best aren't they? And the kids faces when you speak Spanish to them for the first time are priceless. "Oh no, we actually have to talk now since someone can translate!"

I haven't decided what to do when I get older... Much older. I like to think I have more time to decide then I really do. I'm graduating next year, where did all the time go? So I better decide quickly.
What I know for sure, is that I'm going to MATC my senior year for Cosmetology School. I'm really excited, actually. (If you haven't, read the post before this one) I want to learn all I can, and possibly start my own business. How fun would that be? I say lots.

I've been thinking of other Careers too, though.
  • Moorpark, CA. College and study Marine Mammal Training to swim with the dolphins at SeaWorld.
  • Psychology. I don't know what it is but I love helping people with their problems, and helping them see different sides to their situations. I think I'd be good at this, personally.
  • Special Education teacher. What brings more joy than helping these kids? Nothing, nothing does. Ever since I met a little boy with cerebral palsy, Grant, it's changed my whole perspective on that subject.
  • Orthodontic Assistant. I don't even know why this has interested me. It just has! 

I just don't know. Maybe I can do all of them at once?
Help dolphins with their problems, and mental disabilities while fixing their teeth.  
Sounds good to me.
I'll settle for that.

Geeeeez, life is tough. But I'll get by.
I've got an amazing family, and amazing friends.
Actually, life is pretty good as of now.

My only complaint, I kind of miss my long hair.

Monday, January 3, 2011

I'm excited for cosmetology school.

I've been doing hair since I was two years old. Well, I sat underneath my moms 'hair chair' gathering clients hair while she was cutting it, and once I got enough, I would put it all together with an elastic band and braid it, cut it... etc. And if I wasn't doing that hair... You should see my poor barbie dolls.


 I also decided I like painting nails a few years ago, it's super fun to get creative ideas and try them out.
so when I'm bored, and my sister is bored, she lets me paint her toes. So I did that today for fun! 

So blurry! I'm sorry.

Here's a rough sketch of what I did today to my sisters toes, and my left thumb nail. Realize I said MY thumb nail. Just ignore the smudge on the lady bug dot... Oops.

I'll have to post more pictures of what I've done before. I've had so many ideas!

Sunday, January 2, 2011

two thousand & eleven.

Already?! Time to start a New Years Resolution List.
I never really put forth an effort to do the things on my New Years Lists, so that can be number one on this one.

1. Complete these tasks. Or at least try.
2. Fold my laundry before it all builds up and scatters across my floor aimlessly.
3. Stop picking at my split ends, I'm going to end up bald by the time I'm thirty.
4. Keep a certain amount of money in the bank, ALWAYS.
5. Buy a Zumba pass, so I can keep myself in shape during this harsh winter season.
6. Be happy.
7. Try something new, and venture out into the world. Become involved.
8. Update my blog, and discover others.
9. Save money, save money, save money. This is on here twice because it's extremely important!
10. Wait for my boyfriend to get off his mission, since he's leaving this year.

This sounds like a pretty easy list this year. (pats on back)
So let's see if I can attempt to keep these promises.

Eek, two posts in one day. Can you tell I'm excited?

here we go once more.

so here I am, starting my own blog.
wish me luck.

I thought this would be smart, figuring I always think of clever or random things to say in my head... I don't know how to express them. This should work out just fine. I hope.

My life is so plain as of right now. Have you ever been in a crowded room, yet feel so alone? I miss my used to be best friend. Let alone just my old plain friends. I feel like they're slipping right through my grip, and there isn't anything I can do. I try, believe me,  but there are always infinite excuses no matter what time of day. I have many friends, but they aren't people who would want to log off Facebook to go shopping, bond, etc...

But sometimes, I just want to be left alone.
Either alone, or with my best friend.
He makes me extremely happy inside, knowing that he is my soul mate soothes every worry that has ever come across my mind.

Let's hope that this New Year will change things.
I'm ready for change.
A big change, but not too drastic.
I still want him in my life, duh.
But I want more people, friends.
Help me?