blank stare.

Some things are hard to write about.

After something happens to me, I go write it down.

And either I over dramatize it or under play it.

Exaggerate the wrong parts or ignore the important ones.

At any rate, I never write it down quite the way I want to.

friday motto.

For now, it's shame on me.

If it happens again, shame on him.

He just means too much, and I can't seem to veer away.

I don't want too. Even if I feel like hell, I can't. 

I won't.

I believe trust is key in a relationship, 

but how much trust can you give to someone when your paranoid?

What am I suppose to do? 

Forget it?

Move on?

I'm trying.

This was forever ago but still, it's killing me.

He says he's trying.

What do I do?

Wait around until it happens again?

Trust him when he says it won't?

God, this sucks. 

Trust is the most important part of anything.

Please, help me have strength.

Please, help me carry on.

Please, help me do what I need too.

He leaves soon, for two years.

If we leave on these terms, I won't be able to control myself.

Will I ever?

What do I do? FREAKIN.

"If you let him get away with this, he'll just do it again"

towards me.

there comes a time in your life when you just have to let go.
let go of the doubts, the drama, the lies, the endless smiles.
let go of the people who create doubts, drama, lies.
but what about the endless smiles?
what am I suppose to use those on?
happiness hits hard when it leaves you.
what am I to do?
surround myself with people who make me happy?
won't that me think of the person who once did?
life is not fair. please, someone save me... 

"life is too short to be anything but happy."

why not go out on a limb?

that's where the fruit is...

"Don't you worry your pretty little mind, people throw rocks at things that shine all the time."

I'm just flat out confused.
Relationships take so much work, and I know that.
But if he can't be honest with me, then I feel like I'm doing most of the work.
Watching my own back and what not.

At any occasion, I'll be ready for the funeral.

convincing.

When I say I don't care, I'm not trying to convince you, I'm trying to convince myself.

There's so much to take in, and in such little time. This is holding me under, man.

So I guess you were just one of those people who were suppose to walk into my life, teach me a lesson, then walk out?
I kinda miss you a little bit, and seeing how things have changed makes me sad.
Happy, but sad.
Happier.

"It always does, T.  ALWAYS. Not once has it not."

Sometimes distance is all there is.
And hey, I'm not judging by the past.
Because if someone judged me by my past, I would hope they wouldn't get mad when I think it's necessary to put them there, too.

I just don't understand how girls can be so guilible. How I fell for it? I dunno.
I'm just another girl.
When boys say they're different, it really just makes them all the same.
Since they ALL say they're different. Hm. Life lessons, ya know?
They kind suck sometimes.

Upside of my day: osama is dead.
Deader than a dead fish. Burn in hell osama!

"What you put up with, you end up with. You can only expect what you accept from someone."

dreams.

DREAMS.

They're what you follow, right?

Well, I don't wanna follow the one I had last night.

Dreams are so mind boggling. I don't understand their meaning.

The human body is scary if you really think about it.

All you are is a brain. Sitting behind your eyes.

It's controlling the way my fingers are moving to hit the right keys.

The many times I have to press the backspace button.

I don't even have to think about it, because just by seeing a word spelled differently,

my brain knows to correct it, because it knows what's right.

Right?

Right.

This world is such an exciting occasion, and I am so blessed to be here.

Even though it's ending next year, but we won't get into that.

School is almost ending.

My summer job will be starting up sooner than later.

And life is going just about great.

I'll always miss my uncle though, no matter what goes right in my life.

 I'm so blessed to be around such sweet people.

And have the best family I could have ever asked for.

It's my cousins birthday today, Happy Birthday Shell.

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Why can't Spring be here?

No no, why can't SUMMER be here?

I just wanna wear some shorts and show off my pasty white legs.

Is that too much to ask for?

Adele-escence.

Sometimes it's last in love, sometimes it hurts instead.
Gosh, I love Adele. Someone take me to her concert.

Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made.
Who would've known how bitter sweet this would taste?